late night essay writing

So unfocused. My brain's all over the place. Thinking about how I didn't get to practice today because my stupid wrists started hurting. How I wasted the afternoon and am therefore trying to finish an essay due in 12 hours. The event Chorale sang at tonight. The yummy desserts. How I played "dinner music" after not having practiced. How I'll fit in practice time tomorrow. Whether I'll go to breakfast. If the talent show is really worth it...I mean, waiting in line for two hours? Of course I already bought my ticket.

Then people issues. Of course. Always. How I've been so awful in keeping up with my friends back home. I don't know what's going on in their lives. Wanting to stay in touch but not having the time to do it. Then all my friends here...living with people can get on my nerves. Some little habits, ways of viewing things. man. Sometimes they just irritate me. Maybe especially now because my hormones are out of whack. whatever.

Which reminds me of chapel this morning. I don't want to be a whatever person. I care. I really do. It's just so hard when I let school get in the way. And school wouldn't be in the way if facebook wasn't in the way.

Must. Focus. On. Task. and go to sleep. -_-