I skipped breakfast because I stayed up really late homeworking last night. So that was abnormal. Then little things like forgetting my phone and my shoelaces coming untied kept annoying me in the morning. I felt so petty and unsettled. Just a very inexplicable feeling. My day did get better though. It was pretty regular in general until the evening.
With every mealtime comes the minor anxiety of "who am I going to eat with?" It is minor because I actually enjoy eating alone sometimes, though people don't always understand it. I guess I am concerned about what people will think though..."she's such a loner" or "she must be lonely." Normally I don't like it when people act like that, but today was different. I was sitting by myself in the middle of saga, when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked up to see the T7 RA and JA smiling down at me. They asked me if I minded sitting alone. I was sort of confused, so I was like...um, not really...but you can join me if you like...? Turns out they were done already, but A said, "If you want someone to sit with, there's a table of T7 guys over there who would love to eat with their sister." And then I couldn't see the table, so JA pulled my chair out so I could see and pushed me back in. Too sweet. I love those guys.
Turned pages for Dr. Horn during the concerto competition tonight. I like turning pages, though it can be a little stressful. So many good pianists! I heard that R won, though I'm not absolutely sure.
Well I'm bone tired. g'night
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